My mom and I had a good conversation yesterday. We’ve always been close, but in truth, I’ve pulled away some since we moved here and then again since the miscarriage. Moving here has been difficult in so many ways – I think ultimately I’m not designed to be this far away from my family. And [...]
Archive for February, 2007
My mom
Posted in Adoption on February 28, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Research
Posted in Adoption on February 27, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
There’s so much information out there on agencies, yet all the agencies have their own way of presenting that information so digging up stuff and trying to compare is a headache. I’ve got a partial Excel spreadsheet worked out, but every new agency adds new fees and it’s just a big mess. One thing I [...]
Self-assessment
Posted in Adoption on February 26, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
There was a song we used to sing in church when I was a little girl.
Jesus loves the little children
all the children of the world
red, and yellow, black and white
they are precious in his sight
Jesus loves the little children of the world
When we first starting thinking about adoption from China, I kept going back to [...]
Only 15 more days
Posted in Adoption on February 25, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Until DH and I celebrate our 2nd anniversary. This is a requirement for a lot of adoption agencies, including the one we’re favoring, American Adoptions. So we have at least 15 more days to wait before we can fill out applications. Everything feels right at the moment and I’ve really got the momentum to move [...]
Not sad
Posted in Adoption on February 24, 2007 | 1 Comment »
So many times since we lost our baby we have been out to dinner or wherever and I would see a pregnant woman or a baby and I would get sad. One night, in particular, they must have been having a baby convention or something because at the large table next to us (at dinner) [...]
Long-time coming
Posted in Adoption on February 23, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
When I was 16 years old I watched a three-part 20/20 special on adoption. They focused mostly on the, at the time, Romanian orphanages, and they talked a lot about the fact that the babies often had attachment problems because they weren’t held enough. But they did do some other segments on the orphan crisis [...]
Hope
Posted in Adoption on February 22, 2007 | 3 Comments »
When you go through infertility, you lose hope. Really quickly. You question everything, your faith, your own worth, your identity, life in general, your womanhood, everything that you’ve been so certain about becomes fuzzy around the edges and life seems so unorchestrated and uncertain. I’ve felt this way for over a year. Lots of the [...]
Disagreeing
Posted in Adoption on February 20, 2007 | 1 Comment »
So DH and I aren’t seeing eye-to-eye when it comes to how we want to go about this adoption process. I’m all for the agency, provided it’s reputable, he likes the attorney/find the birth mother ourselves route. I’m not convinced that route works and if it does it seems it would take forever and that [...]
Lost in the maze
Posted in Adoption on February 18, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Motherhood is not for weenies. I’ve learned this and I don’t even have a child at home yet. Having the China door slammed in our face has really shaken us up. We were so certain about that and we know we’ll still pursue it at some point, but right now, what do [...]
New criteria = more waiting
Posted in China on February 16, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Well, I received an email from the agency we’ve selected today. I had sent an inquiry about all the rumors I’d heard regarding new requirements established by the Chinese government. We were concerned that we wouldn’t meet a few of them. And we were right. The net worth requirement is a [...]
